New domain… again

Seems Google blocked all co.cc domains from search results due to the large amount of SPAM these have. Unfortunately I was using these on my blog because they’re a good free alternative. So now I changed the domain again. In theory you shouldn’t be harmed, as I’ll keep redirections to the new domain, but this is just a shout to to update your bookmarks nonetheless, as my domain is now jp-arvela.cx.cc (ugh, it is a hideous domain, appearance wise, but it gets the job done).

Mental Overload

Tension piles up, everyday. A new work to do, a new problem to solve, a new situation to figure out. I wait for my moment of peace, and it never comes. Stress is bigger every moment. I constrain my actions as things get worse. Thinking is harder by the moment, and more demanding every second.

Suddenly, something breaks. snap! I need to escape! I need to hide! My heart beats faster and faster! I don’t know what to do! I run. I close the door behind me. A tear flows down my face. It feels good, it’s as if my problems flow down with it. I slowly approach my bed, as if I am re-learning to walk. As I lie in bed, I finally get my rest.

By José Pedro Arvela

Where I belong

Minecart Interstate V4.0 [Minecraft] (on YouTube).

As I drift in this world, I realize I am not part of where I am. Never. I am a drifter, in a road to nowhere. I am not me. I can’t be. I can only wait, as I walk, as I drift, and try to find my place.

I don’t know where I belong. I don’t know how I ended up here. I don’t know where I go. But I know I’ll reach it someday, even if I don’t know I have done so. For now, every place is a road. Every place is a path to somewhere else, and I can’t stop, no matter what.

I lied. There is a place where I can stop. One single place. But not for long. It is my corner. My fort. My shelter. It is the only place I feel safe, and where I can truly rest. It is not big, and it has not much stuff inside, but it is mine, and it is unique in its own subtle way. But soon, the travel resumes, and I must go on. I will miss this small shelter. But I will build another one. It will look mundane, just like the previous one. But it will be different. They are always different. They are unique. They are mine, and that makes all the difference.

And as I finish this text, it is time to go back to the road. To never give up. And as life approaches me, to face it, and to never turn back.

PortableApps.com Oxygen Theme

A theme with silver gradients and the oxygen icon theme, made to resemble closely to the KDE 4.1 desktop

Oxygen Theme Screenshot

Here is my new theme, based of the Oxygen Theme used by KDE4. This is also my first theme made to work both on the PortableApps Menu 1.1 from PortableApps.com and the PortableApps Menu Mod R3x from PTC. The screenshot of this theme here shown is from the PAM Mod version, that has more theme features that allow me to improve it. Continue reading